Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Finals are over

So I know that I'm not supposed to step on the scale but I did. I can tell that I am still gaining weight which is frustrating. I try to tell myself that it is ok but I don't really believe it. So last week at the gym I wanted to know how much I've gained so my curiosity got the best of me and I weighed myself. I've gained 10 pounds since I started doing intuitive eating and that sucks. So for the last week, my weight has been at the back of my mind and I've felt really crappy and so for whatever reason, I've been eating a lot - more than my body wants or needs. Maybe I'm punishing myself, maybe I'm letting myself get too hungry or eating before I'm hungry so I can't tell when I'm full. Basically I have not been focusing on me or my body for the last few weeks and now that finals are over and I have a second to think about these things, I don't feel so good - physically or emotionally. 

BUT - I'm not done. Believe me, I've thought about it. Do you know how easy it would be for me to go on diet right now and lose those 10 pounds in no time? Wow - even saying that makes me cringe because I really do believe in these Intuitive Eating principles. I'm writing this blog post to remind myself that this is a process and I can learn from my experiences.

Happy Holidays and eat whatever you want!

2 comments:

CMR said...

You are the best KTB!

Anonymous said...

I'm just starting Intutitive eating, and I was gaining as well. I managed to turn it round - I have now lost a few pounds very slowly, but the trick that helped me was visulising a hunger scale, and working out where I was on it before I ate. I realised I was eating at the first tiny sign of hunger. So now I wait, until I am sure that I really am hungry, and I have definitley cut down what I eat, without cutting down my enjoyment of it.