Endorphins make you happy

I was surprised but I actually felt better after my workout - not just physically but emotionally too and luckily I didn't kill anyone that day.

Big Fat Lies

Today I weighed myself at the gym. Not a good idea. I had been feeling good since all my two-a-days so I guess I wanted some kind of confirmation about all this. I was disappointed and then frustrated. I started telling my personal trainer about the scale and how I need to remember that it is about how I feel and not any kind of measurement. We got into a discussion about health. Can an obese/overweight person be healthy? I was arguing yes and I recommended this book. I haven't read it all so I didn't really know how to argue my point well.

The conversation shifted and then he confessed to me that he had checked out my blog. My first thought was oh crap. I never in a million years thought he would read my posts so I always thought it was OK to make him look like the bad guy when talking about my body and weight issues. I felt really bad cause the truth is if I didn't get along so well with this guy he would not still be my personal trainer after almost 2 years. He pushes me just enough and he is incredibly good at figuring out new exercises. In fact he is really creative cause he has me working on my core almost the whole time even if I'm working on other things - like bicep curls or whatever.

Side note: By the way today I beat (or at least matched) some weight records for his female clients on at least two exercises.

OK - back to the story. The first thing E (that is how I will refer to him) said was, "After all we've been through ... ?" That made me feel worse. After discussing some of the comments I had made about him in various posts, he said he understood that every good story needs a villain and he was OK with that. I could tell that he wasn't exactly OK with being the bad guy in my Intuitive Eating Journey so I told him about this post and this post.

Bottom line, if you are looking for a personal trainer, I have a great recommendation.

E - if you are reading this ... please realize that I don't try to set up my nieces with just anybody. Take that as compliment buddy. And although we may not see eye to eye on all things intuitive, I do appreciate you helping me lift weights.

Make an appointment with yourself

THOUGHT ONE:
Tonight I skimmed through Chapter 13 - the exercise chapter. I'm sure I reviewed it before in another post but right now I'm just going to write about whatever I want.

• Focus on how it feels
• Focus on exercise as a way of taking care of myself ... because you love yourself
  
• Make exercise a nonnegotiable priority

"Make an appointment with yourself to work out, and honor it as you would any other meeting or appointment." So ... treat yourself like you would other people.

Ever since I made the goal to train for this triathlon, I have scheduled time to work out and I actually have honored these appointments. Before it was so easy to find any excuse not to work out. Now I find myself telling people that I can meet you after such and such a time (considering the workout and a quick shower).

Well all this exercising has made me really tired and really hungry. Last night after work I met my personal trainer for our regularly scheduled work out and then we had our basketball banquet. I didn't leave the high school until 10:00 PM and I still needed to do my biking for the day. I broke the appointment with myself because I decided sleep could be just as important.

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THOUGHT TWO:
Why my legs hurt when I run. Now three people have told me its all about the shoes. I thought it was cause I wasn't stretching enough or correctly. Well my personal trainer entertained all my ideas and then said, "or it is cause you need to lose weight."

Anyway, I bought these today after my run. The sales guy could tell from the bottom of my old shoes how I run. I run neutral apparently which he said was good. I tried on a bunch of shoes and finally decided on a pair that felt the best. I was not concerned one bit about how they looked only how they felt. Well now isn't this a nice analogy for intuitive eating - how you feel not how you look.

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THOUGHT THREE:
Last night at the banquet one of the basketball girl's moms said she thought I had lost weight. I told her I didn't know cause I don't weigh myself. I didn't really get into intuitive eating, I just told her that I try to focus on how I feel.

I'm pretty sure I haven't lost any weight. I just think she had never seen me in jeans.

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THOUGHT FOUR:
Swimming etiquette. Larry and I share a lane. He walks on the east side and I swim on the west. It wouldn't really work for us to go around in a circle and we definitely cannot have a third person. Well this morning some girl jumped in our lane. How in the world was this going to work? Luckily I only had one more down and back so Larry just got out and I swam on his side. I was bugged. I understand that when it is crowded you gotta share but I just don't want to go more than two per lane. Is that unreasonable?

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THOUGHT FIVE:
Cafe Rio tostada. I discovered a way to get a cheaper, smaller salad. Just order a tostada with a flour tortilla. They put sour cream on it instead of guacamole. Anyway it was good to eat after a week and a half of two-a-days.

As she passed me on the street

this girl (some BYU co-ed I'm sure) said,

"Good job."

I replied after gasping, "Thanks."

Well now that was nice. Or was it? I was jogging up a hill and obviously not going all that fast. I'm not sure what was going on there. Oh well.

Today when I left work it was so nice outside that I decided to do my walk/job outside. Man it is a good thing that I am so used to the honks, whistles and cat calls. In fact I don't even hear them anymore. It felt good to run outside and in fact, I was able to run the last 10 minutes straight (I usually have to break it up into a walk/jog).

Oh and I told my personal trainer about my goal to do a triathlon and of course he was excited. Then I told him about how much swimming I was doing that week. The truth is the Saturday before I decided to do this, I swam 18 down and backs (resting every two). But now that my training program told my I only need to do 3 down and backs (consecutively, mind you) I decided to just follow the program. Well Eric did not like that - "what you are going to do? De-condition?" Gosh, if you put it like that...

I thought about that a lot and so this morning I swam 3 sets of FOUR down and backs. I liked it - I might even do four sets on Wednesday. Larry came too in his new swim suit and goggles (an early father's day gift from yours truly).

I think I like swimming better than jogging cause it doesn't hurt. When I run my knees and calves hurt. I guess there might be something to that stretching theory. I should try it. Do you think that will help? Please don't tell me to do yoga ... not ready for that for sure. Maybe some day.

I found these pictures the other day...

SIGH

The best part

of making a goal like training for a triathlon is the excuses to buy new toys.
Like today I bought this:


I almost bought this:


and this:

but decided to wait.

On my birthday in August, I'm going to buy myself a new road bike.

This morning Larry and I went swimming at BYU. I think he's going to get some goggles and a new swimsuit for father's day.

After work today I decided to try out BYU's work out facilities. I'll be going back to Gold's gym unless I am swimming or playing racquetball.

I committed to a triathlon

read all about it here on my other blog.